well, yesterday my youngest moved to Maryland to begin a new journey in a new town. it tore my heart to pieces to let her go (with her hubby) but go she did. i know this is the right thing for them to be doing, with Gods blessing, but it is so very very hard, to me, to release her 100%. i will miss her beyond words cause to me she was the one who has needed me the most, at least i think. she was/is the one of my 4 children who pushes me the most to be better, healthwise, etc. and as much as i hate it i know i will miss it too. my prayer is for a wonderful transition in this new home/place. right now and for most is we need to be praying for a position to open up in their area and i know God has a wonderful plan for them and i believe the door will open above and beyond whatever they have asked for. We now have one more place to visit one of our kids. Today was hard when people asked if they got off but in time i know this too will become easier, not to easy tho, LOL.
i love them both and will miss them tons

todays reflection

it is my usual Friday off and i do love having that day off - not feeling up to snuff with this cough, etc. Got meds today to hopefully get on the mend. Dealt with a customer via email from home today and i really don't think i helped solve the problem - won't do that again - open work email.
Hopefully tomorrow i can complete (closer to completion) my long ago started bathroom project. i always have great ideas but when i hit a wall i tend to loose interest and this is not a good thing since it is the master bathroom. I did get the masterbedroom 99.9% completed (minor details left - wall hangings, etc) and i have to say i love what i did there. Since the kids have been getting married off or moving out i am getting my house to look more inviting, now if i could just become a "clean" freak. i love a clean house but i do not enjoy housework. My mom instilled enough in me though to strive for a cleaner house and i have to say i do love it when it is cleaned. But i also can say i can live with something out of order for maybe days - until my Friday day off. i don't get bent out of shape and lots of times i think that is a good thing and i can work like a dog when there is a need - but bottom line i am not a "clean freak".

i am one of those kinda people who love being around others but also relish my time alone in my house with just me. I get sidetracked easily when i am home - wonder why that is? and of late is seems that happens more often.

it has been so blessed hot out this summer that i am looking forward to fall. Haven't been able to enjoy the outdoors like i want. One of the things i love is eating out on the deck in the evenings and haven't been able to do that all summer - so once again this summer is eluding me to quickly. why does it seem that the older i get the faster these summer days seem to fly - hot weather or not?